I wonder
If this is gonna end soon
My soul is torn apart
with hate
I would like to escape
close my eyes
and forget everything
but it's there
always there
and it makes me sick
I played with fire and got burned
I can understand that
but I can't stand the thought that everything was in vain
that nothing good came of it
nothing was learned
nothing changed
the same things that happened before are happening again
listening to what is wanted to be heard and dropping what is not
and everything was just a matter of convenience
I feel so
deceived...
Why did I put my heart where I should just have put my lust?
it should have been the other way around
that would have been
way easier to fix...
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